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[She doesn't really care. Her worry about Komaeda has actually won out over her own sense of self-preservation. And while she's not completely blind to Hinata's obvious trouble, she is angry and that transmits well over their connection.]

I didn't say lie to him. That would have been infinitely worse, but when I arrived... I know that I am not the most observant person about interpersonal realtions, Hinata-san, but even I thought the two of you were far more than friends. It confused me at first, until I realized what sort of changes he'd gone through with only Enoshima-san as company.

And it's stupid to assume that one confession of love should be met with another. It rarely works that way, but perhaps you might have considered how you relationship changed from that point!

Even so, I...!

[ His voice is frustrated through the link and it's obvious that his problems are being laid bare. It's hard to tell through just hearing his voice, but he's shaking. ]

I already knew that our relationship had changed, Sonia! But I still had feelings for Nanami and I was scared that I would have to be forced to choose! And now that she's here, I'm even more scared...! I don't want to lose her again, damn it!

Listen to me right now. Did Komaeda-san ever once ask you to choose between him and Nanami-san? I know for a fact that she wouldn't do something like that.

[She takes a deep, shuddering breath before speaking again.]

I know for a fact that it is perfectly possible to have feelings more than one person. Allowing yourself to move forward with one person is not disrespectful to the other. We learned that when Nidai-san returned, did we not? It might not be the same sort of feelings, but it is a similar situation.

And not to be pessimistic, but nothing here is guaranteed. Doesn't it behoove ourselves and those we're associated with to take advantage of the time we have together?

[ He... isn't going to shout. No matter how much he wants to, he plans on keeping his calm. Or at least, he's trying. ]

I get what you're trying to say, but -- I couldn't just make a huge decision like that without understanding my feelings on matter. Because for the longest of times I was scared that maybe I'd wake up, back on the island, and the 'Komaeda' that I would find was not the one here. But the person we saw back then!

I was scared that I'd be betrayed again!

[While he might be trying to keep his calm, Sonia's had too much on her mind to keep it all in check and anger, fear, disgust, envy and sadness all compete to try and make themselves known both in her voice and over the crystal. It feels like the perfect storm for despair, which is why she cuts the connection quickly.]

[After a few moments, once she's reined everything in and can form words that aren't filled with self-pity and all of the other ugly emotions she keeps buried deep down, she reaches out to Hinata once more.]

Taking your time to figure out your feelings isn't the problem. That, actually, is fairly logical, considering our situation. And your fear is valid. I also fear that I will wake up back on the island and it will be the two of us with Souda-san, Owari-san and Kuzuryu-san and I will be out of someone who has been the best friend that I have been lucky enough to find.

But I have not let it stop me. If we let fear dictate our lives, we might as well just turn ourselves over to the Future Foundation, yes?

[ He can feel it all and he takes it all in -- on his end he tries to hide the fear; disgust towards him only reminds him of those times. He can practically hear it now, in his head. The taunts they said back then --

"He has no talent."
"It's pointless."
"His parents are stupid, too."
"You can just pay your way in."
"They want him to succeed that much?"
"Must be nice being rich."

It hurts. The envy he feels now emanating from her comes from a different source, but it's the exact same feeling. ]

I get it.

[ His voice is tenser than it usually is, and it pisses him off. ]

But I don't like the idea of feeling like I'm forced to choose -- it's not fair to them, I feel, that I just can't.

Edited 2016-07-17 17:53 (UTC)

[She lets out a painful, sympathetic sigh and sends her own affection for her friend towards him over the crystal.]

Who says that you must choose either of them? It is not conventional, for sure, but there is a way that you can have both. Neither of them are the types to want you to be unhappy at all. Nagito-san and Nanami-san are both surprisingly giving people and they care for you deeply.

Please don't think that you have to hurt either one of them to be even remotely happy. In this instance, you can have it all, Hinata-san.

[Be the harem protagonist. Reach that potential!]

Is it... really alright for me to choose like that, though?

[ He can't help but feel a little guilty. Although Hinata knows the kind of people they are, he still can't help but worry. It's stupid. It's really stupid. And yet. . . ]

You cannot do that without talking to both of them, it's true, but we both know that they care for you deeply.

[Don't be dumb, Hinata. Grab onto that brass ring and hold for dear life.

. . . I know. If she didn't, she wouldn't have sacrificed herself like that. But I'll give it a shot. Thanks, Sonia, for helping me get back to my senses.

Hinata-san, I am glad to have helped you. I only hope that you will remember that more than your feelings are involved in this situation. There are three of you. And I don't want to see anyone hurt.

[She doesn't want to see Nagito look like that ever again.]

Edited 2016-07-23 05:35 (UTC)

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