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[ He's being messed with. Hinata knows this fully well and he can't help but knit his brows together before sighing. ]

Alright. Just take your time; I'm not in any hurry or anything.

[Maybe he shouldn't tease him when he's so tired. But this is the closest to his usual self he's felt in hours. The vague disconnect is still there but not nearly as pronounced. He trails his fingers down Hinata's chest. The warmth and love are real. Not a spirit talking to old hurts. He sighs.

As he reaches for the bowl he sits up straight. It smells wonderful. At a glance he knows there's exactly what he needs. Taking his time eating isn't about messing with Hinata. He really is tired. By the time he's halfway through he starts.]

Red and his pokemon Articuno worked together with the Arehtei to contain the storm surrounding the mountain. Jade-san slowed down and dulled Elios's direct attack on us with shield crafted from Dunamis. It wasn't perfect but no other powers were working. Only Dunamis and focusing on emotions got us anywhere. Even our gear was infused with hate.

Edited 2017-06-15 22:03 (UTC)

... Articuno?

[ You might want to elaborate on that a little bit, Komaeda. That's something that's new to him, so he is definitely interested in hearing more. ] And I see. You said that Elios tried to hypnotize you guys with love, right? How exactly did he do it?

[His tired smile falls. A shadow passes across his face as he sets his spoon down. Nothing is said for a few minutes as he stares into the bowl.]

Remember when I said I wanted someone's love? He took me back to the deepest memories of love I have. The easiest ones to get lost in are also the most painful.

[He traces faint whorls in the metal spoon as he continues in a soft voice.] It was a wind that carried us back. When Red called out to me I almost didn't hear it. It was enough of a jolt to allow me to give myself a wake up call.

[He had hit himself hard enough to jar his mind out of the haze.]

...yeah, I remember.

[ He hasn't forgotten. His eyes fix on Komaeda, however. ]

But I think I understand, in a way, even if I haven't experienced it myself. [ Hinata lowers his voice, as he speaks, full of affection. ] You're okay now, though. Right?

....sorry as I am to say it, not yet. [He leans into him and basks in the warmth and feelings of the moment.] But I'm mostly myself again.

To hold out against Elios I originally thought immersing myself and being that loathsome creature I was would be ideal. It was. A bit too well. It made any damage he did that much harder to return to balance. I was enjoying my own pain. Immersing myself in despair.

Only when I was balanced did I reach him. [He lifts his left hand and waves it around slightly.] It's like being a river instead of a fire. I'm thinking I need to find a better route or at least, when I immerse myself like that.

Form an ideal not the real memories.

Edited 2017-06-20 16:42 (UTC)

You don't have to apologize.

[ Even though Hinata appreciates it all the same, allowing himself to be leaned on. He does appreciate that much, and he can't help but smile that he's feeling a little better, even if it's not complete. ]

But I think I understand. Balance is key here. I get why you would want to counteract a massive amount of love with a massive amount of hate, though... but if you need practice in finding a better route, I wouldn't mind helping by utilizing Kamukura.

[Komaeda's head shoots up abruptly, his eyes wide. Kamukura. Apathy.

He stares at the wall with a distance in his eyes as he nods slowly. It's like a piece settling into place. He lets his mind fall like a stone into the place where he cares about nothing. Was nothing. Just for a moment. When he returns to the present he feels slightly more like himself.] ...We'll have to use it at some point. Why not against a love that consumes all thought?

[He turns back to Hinata and touches the side of his face.]

We were worried about apathy. But I think that might be something we have to consider. It's a natural part of the world. Against imbalance it is a negative. Elios needs negative emotions to rebalance.

Do you think it'll work?

[ Hinata finds himself humming out of curiosity, pressing his lips together. ]

I mean... you're right that it's a part of the world around us, though. And I don't think it would hurt to try.

Only as a last resort. I need to discuss this with the Arehtei and with Red. But, I don't think we should dismiss it as an option. [He traces Hinata's jaw with his fingers. He's too tired to be more affectionate than that. But, the care is in his eyes.] As you are. You're balanced between emotions and that apathy.

Presently you will have to struggle but, don't go completely into apathy to cope. Hm?

I can do that.

[ Balancing between the two. Although when he says not to go to apathy to cope he finds himself tensing up, enough to be noticeable. ]

... I won't. Promise.

Just be careful. That's all I'm asking you. [He shifts, pressing up against Hinata's side. He loves him so much. It's terrifying sometimes. The idea of losing him is enough to make him never want to feel anything. No one has ever been this close.]

That's all. [He whispers. Fingers still on Hinata's jaw.] I love you.

I'm more careful now than I was before. Don't... worry about me so much.

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