[ He... isn't going to shout. No matter how much he wants to, he plans on keeping his calm. Or at least, he's trying. ]

I get what you're trying to say, but -- I couldn't just make a huge decision like that without understanding my feelings on matter. Because for the longest of times I was scared that maybe I'd wake up, back on the island, and the 'Komaeda' that I would find was not the one here. But the person we saw back then!

I was scared that I'd be betrayed again!