....sorry as I am to say it, not yet. [He leans into him and basks in the warmth and feelings of the moment.] But I'm mostly myself again.

To hold out against Elios I originally thought immersing myself and being that loathsome creature I was would be ideal. It was. A bit too well. It made any damage he did that much harder to return to balance. I was enjoying my own pain. Immersing myself in despair.

Only when I was balanced did I reach him. [He lifts his left hand and waves it around slightly.] It's like being a river instead of a fire. I'm thinking I need to find a better route or at least, when I immerse myself like that.

Form an ideal not the real memories.