It's not that I doubt your willingness to do things for me. [It's he doesn't feel like he deserves anything right now. Komaeda rubs his cheek on his chest despite that self loathing curling in his chest making it feel tight.] Just don't feel all that well right now.

[He had been his despair self in almost every way that matters for a while. Full of despair and hate. His fingers curl again into the white shirt.]

That jolt sounds about right. ...it wasn't because I was my old self. Elios has tipped so far he sounded like Mitarai-kun. I thought I got through and could handle his trap.

Then he tried to hypnotize us with love. He had been trying before but, not like that.

[With his metal hand he reaches down and pulls his shirt up. On the left side of his body a fist sized bruise has turned a sickly shade of purple.] Even that wouldn't have been enough.

If not for Red-san's timely actions and Peromei responding to my call. I've felt...out of sorts since.